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I suddenly got to realise that am at this stage…! Got to learn a whole new lesson, a whole new me (in few aspects). Every 365 days for the past 21 years, feels nothing, thinking of the track am running against ME!! in this surreal unbalanced world filled with noise, this realisation hits harder than I expected.
Everything suddenly feels more vivid. I start noticing the little things, the way someone smiles, the silence between words, the way the light hits the same wall it’s always hit.
It wasn’t perfect, but it was real.
I laughed, I overthought, I healed things I didn’t talk about.
And now, with 22 knocking, I’m just holding space for gratitude for the person I was, and the person I’m becoming.
This phase? It’s softer, it’s slower, but it’s also stronger, because it’s honest. So here…
Not as a finish line, but a fresh chapter;
Not about chasing perfection, but embracing presence;
Not about fixing everything, but finding peace with what is!
I’m still learning, shifting and maybe I always will be.
But it feels a little more beautiful.
Here we’re starting fresh;
but I don’t remember what it feels like feeling whole;
I’m trying to change, to grow
To tie this all up in a neat, tidy bow
But I’ll never know right and wrong; weak and strong;
A binary that already has complexities and a shades of gray
And I just want to be okay
I can’t keep burning through life this way
Will it ever stop?
There can’t be more shoes that drop
I need hope that all will be well
That my heart will swell and fill the hole
I need to accept what I can’t control
The secrets are told, there’s nothing new to learn or unfold
I need peace to gather the pieces of my soul
Or I will burn until there is nothing left
- GINNY
#கடினமா இரு!! #kadinama iru
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